#am genuinely really depressed #and im a lil frightened bc #all i can feel is worry #and anxiety #like im having a huge 21st bday party #and all i worry about is if its gonna suck like #im not even excited rn #i need 2 take my meds and go to sleep for real #i  just hate what depression can steal from you #like everything can be fine and you can just be so empty #and then when bad things do happen its like #so much fucking worse #like i literally didnt go to my classes today #i just sat and stared at the wall #and then like #i dont even know #i feel #im alone in my 3 person apartment like usual and #i just feel really #i dunno #i guess depressed would be the right word lol #i hope no one reads this